Personal Stories

As a young girl, I believed no one, including my family, liked me. Once I drew a picture of myself being attacked by demons. I drew Jesus standing off to the side and watching me in disappointment as I struggled under the weight of the attacks. I believed He could help, but I also believed the weight was mine to bear. I thought only when I overcame the struggle that Jesus and I could move on.

I had been raised by a cruel and abusive father who was mentally unsound and incredibly legalistic. I spent my childhood fearing him and struggled desperately to be loved. By the time I was a teenager, my self-esteem was incredibly low. I thought I was hideously unattractive, stupid, and a burden to anybody I met.

My children had been taken away from me in 1983. Their mother married another man who adopted my children, and they tried to prevent me from seeing them again.

I was raised as a believer but was taught some limiting beliefs. I believed if I was trusting God for something and sinned, spoke negatively about it, or got in strife with someone, that would end my “faith walk” of trusting God for my breakthrough, and I had to start back at square one. I also believed that if my breakthrough took time or wasn’t happening, it was because my faith wasn’t enough.

On Friday, I was driving home from work when I tuned in to Pastor Prince’s sermon “Live the Let-Go Life” on YouTube. It was a rhema word for me, the right message at the right time.

Earlier this year, I had been told by my supervisor that the company had to let me go because the firm was struggling amidst the COVID-19 pandemic. They needed to cut costs and unfortunately that involved the removal of my role. Just like that, I was let go the following day.

I came across Joseph Prince’s website when I was jobless. I searched randomly for testimonies of people who had gotten jobs miraculously and an encouraging praise report came up.

We had always wanted a child from the first year of our marriage back in 2011. However, despite our best efforts, we never managed to conceive. It was not until our second year of marriage that we started consulting doctors to understand the complexity of the issues that both my wife and I were facing.

Pastor Prince, we came from a background where we received heavy legalistic teaching before we discovered the gospel of God’s grace.

In February 2018, just before Chinese New Year, my husband was informed that he would be made redundant by his company. He was given a month’s notice.

One morning in January, I watched a sermon by Pastor Joseph Prince titled, Protection From Danger, Accidents And Diseases, on iTBN. As I listened to the message, the verses from Psalm 91:11–12 jumped out at me: “For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.”

For some time now, I was in credit card debt and had no savings. I never seemed to get ahead because there was always something that needed fixing in my house or car.