Personal Stories

Growing up, I just wanted to be a good person who did the right things and avoided doing bad things. I got married and had 2 sons. But my husband and I had frequent fights, leading me to contemplate divorce many times. The future seemed bleak as I struggled with fear and anxiety, not knowing how I would be able to pay off the home debts or how I could afford for my kids to go to university. As a result, I struggled with a very bad temper, stress, and depressive thoughts.

I started listening to Pastor Prince's messages 10 years ago and learned so much about God's goodness, kindness, grace, and love.

About 18 months ago, I lost my boyfriend in an accident. When I got the news he passed away, I had a nervous breakdown. I felt like I couldn’t breathe and move anything in my body. When I reached home, I went straight to bed to read my Bible but while reading, I threw it across the room yelling, “How can God let my boyfriend die?” From that point on, I stopped believing in God even though I grew up in a Christian home and knew all about the miracles of God.

We started listening to Joseph Prince 10 years ago. At that time, my oldest daughter had given birth to a baby at 24 weeks but the baby only lived for 3 days. It was the hardest thing our family had to endure.

I was raised in a family where from a young age, we were told that when we sin, we would suffer retribution. Our family was not at peace and my parents would quarrel almost every week. The fights would often escalate and involve threats of violence from both parties. As a child, I was traumatised.

In May 2019, I heard Pastor Prince preach a sermon in which he specifically mentioned that someone listening would have a breakthrough in their infertility within the next year. At that time, my husband and I had been married for almost 13 years and were unable to conceive.

I’d battled depression on and off over the years, but 2020 was the darkest time I’ve ever had. I felt like I was drowning in a ferocious storm as wave after wave tossed me around. On top of the effects of the COVID-19 pandemic and being separated from the people I love, I was getting hit by one negative situation after another. Eventually, I felt my heart completely shatter.

A month ago, my daughter was retrenched from her job. My husband had also been informed earlier this year that the company he was working in would be shut down. I am also jobless due to a lower back injury. Things seemed bleak and I worried about how we were going to pay our bills.

For quite some time, I had stopped reading the book, Unmerited Favor. But recently, I picked up the book again. I continued from where I left off and it happened to be where Pastor Prince wrote about how David defeated Goliath.

At the lowest point of my life—struggling to get into university, depressed and beating myself up—I cried out to God.

I was diagnosed with streptococcus infection (a bacteria that causes disorders such as strep throat, pneumonia and bloodstream infection) and experienced unbearable pain in my head, hands and feet.

Pastor Prince, there was a period in my life where my Bible study time was so lifeless and dry. I would read the Word but couldn’t get much out of it. I started to feel condemned and guilty and stopped reading the Bible for a long time.