Personal Stories

Pastor Prince, a few years ago, God brought you to my attention during one of the darkest years of my life.

At the height of my career success, I was at my darkest point. According to the world, I was performing well. My name was known for getting the job done and I was counted on. But I was miserable. I was fighting for my life.

I became a Christian when I was studying in university. One year after graduating, I married my wife who was attending the same church as I was. God blessed us with 2 boys in our first 3 years of marriage. But life was not easy during those years. The devil kept blocking us from seeing the truth, love, and grace of Jesus Christ. My family struggled spiritually and financially.

For almost 30 years, I was a prisoner of the law of the old covenant and was under harsh teachings from the pulpit. About 10 years ago, I made a decision to leave church after which I felt so lost and was almost driven to despair because of a guilt-ridden mind.

I started watching Joseph Prince in 2015 by accident when my television cable channels went down in a storm, and I had to re-tune all my channels. When it updated, it added Trinity Broadcasting Network (TBN), and Joseph Prince was on. It was strange for me to receive an English network as I live abroad in Spain. What caught my attention was hearing the word grace, as it is my daughter’s name. She had recently left to go to university in London, and after 17 years of just the two of us together, I was feeling so sad and alone—she is my world.

I was finally able to take my civil engineer licensure examination after a year of delay due to the pandemic. To be honest, I was unsure about taking the exam because of the changing situations in the country. I found myself dumbstruck in the first few days of study, because it had been months since I last studied. There were moments I just stared blankly at the questions.

I was raised as a Christian and had accepted Christ in 1985. The many Christian churches I went to always taught a mixture of law and grace, and I was a lukewarm Christian. My dad was a womanizer and I grew up seeing how my mum suffered as a result. This and the lack of a father’s love made me believe wrongly and accept a man whom I thought was giving me the right kind of love.

I have always had a bad relationship with food. I would either overeat or go on extreme diets.But after listening to Pastor Prince’s messages on health and how Jesus through the cross provides restoration for my health, I realized that it wasn’t my relationship with my body or food that was unhealthy; it was my relationship with God that wasn’t right.

As a young girl, I believed no one, including my family, liked me. Once I drew a picture of myself being attacked by demons. I drew Jesus standing off to the side and watching me in disappointment as I struggled under the weight of the attacks. I believed He could help, but I also believed the weight was mine to bear. I thought only when I overcame the struggle that Jesus and I could move on.

I had been raised by a cruel and abusive father who was mentally unsound and incredibly legalistic. I spent my childhood fearing him and struggled desperately to be loved. By the time I was a teenager, my self-esteem was incredibly low. I thought I was hideously unattractive, stupid, and a burden to anybody I met.

When our son Jonas was 11 months, he was diagnosed with a rare form of leukemia. The doctors recommended that Jonas go for a bone marrow transplant as there was no other cure for the disease and we were told chemotherapy might not work.

Pastor Prince, my daughter made plans with two of her female friends from church to travel throughout Europe and Greece in July 2016. Even though our family and friends had concerns about her traveling in a time of global unrest and violence, my husband and I felt peace from the Lord and did not object to her plans.