Personal Stories

Up until a few months ago, I was addicted to cigarettes and marijuana for 18 years and also to pornography. I had tried many times to quit all three because I knew they were wrong but felt so condemned that I couldn’t. The pornography addiction led me to massage parlours, which then led to me feeling even more condemned than before, as no one knew I was doing this.

I was convinced that I had committed the unpardonable sin mentioned in the Bible. As a result, I thought God and the Holy Spirit were far from me, and fell into severe depression and anxiety. I was under so much mental and emotional oppression that I could not function normally in daily life.

One morning at about 2am, I was awoken from my sleep and decided to pray. I also wanted to drink water from the fridge, something I don’t usually do because it means I will have to use the washroom later and that disturbs my sleep.

We had always wanted a child from the first year of our marriage back in 2011. However, despite our best efforts, we never managed to conceive. It was not until our second year of marriage that we started consulting doctors to understand the complexity of the issues that both my wife and I were facing.

One morning during my usual prayer time, I felt an urge to confess Psalm 91:1 over myself. Later that day, I was cooking lunch for my family and was boiling a large saucepan of water. The pan was filled to the brim. As I stood watching the water boil, I thanked God for His grace. Ten minutes later, when I took the saucepan off the stove to pour the water out, the water spilled onto both my hands.

Ever since Covid-19 hit, I started tuning in to New Creation Church Online every week. The message of God’s unmerited favour, grace and love has brought me countless of breakthroughs—even more than what I have experienced in the past 30 over years of being a Christian.

I was in despair and depression to the point I had started to believe that God had turned His back on me and left me. One night, I cried out to God and asked Him to send me a sign. At this point, I was honestly ready to commit suicide. I had made up my mind that if God no longer cared, then I had no reason to live anymore.

For more than two years, I had a persistent rash on my back as well as my groin area that wouldn’t go away.

Pastor Prince, I was introduced to your book, Unmerited Favor, by my good friend. After reading the introduction from a copy I’d borrowed from my local library, I realized it contains revelations on Jesus that were missing in my spiritual walk.

In February 2018, just before Chinese New Year, my husband was informed that he would be made redundant by his company. He was given a month’s notice.

My marriage and family life were deteriorating. In our third year of marriage, my husband and I were still getting to know each other while blending a family of two teenagers and two pre-adolescents.

I am living in New York City, the epicenter of the COVID-19 pandemic in the United States.